Sunday, 17 August 2008

Find the beauty within

Find the beauty within 27/05/05 (Updated)

Find the beauty within
Words of wisdom
I looked and found
A hurriedly packed cardboard box
Untidily yet Tightly sealed
In black marker the words
Do not open yet – unfulfilled hopes and dreams
I looked further
The dust covered the still jangling nerves
But could not hide the pain
Swept carelessly into the corners of the room
Memories of relationships that have
gone rusty from lack of use
or lie incomplete waiting for a reciprocation
if the beauty exists how would it survive?

I resolve to look deeper
Beyond the dust shrouded memories
A pile of boxes
Though more orderly stacked
The contents clearly marked
Career, family, achievements
As much as I might hope
These may as well be filled with air
Some suitcases lie in the doorway
Poorly, hastily packed, bulging, zips ready to burst
I don’t think it is in there
Evidence of an unplanned journey

But what is this?
On the floor by the fireplace
A glimpse of colour
Green leaves
Purple flower
A timid hope
Struggling to beat the choking dust
The choking strangulation
Fighting
In this deserted place
It will need sunlight to slip across its needy branches
Life giving water
Sustenance not rotting dust
A beauty within
A struggling hope
Can it survive?

Monday, 4 August 2008

B tch

The rising tide
Slow and unstoppable
The inevitability of the feeling
Choking me
Nauseating gasps for understanding
I breathe carefully
I pace my strength
I hold on till you leave
Frantically trying to make it go
The taste of betrayal
The suffocation of lies
Filling my body
B1tch

Your words
Your lies
Sweetly dropped
Like dripping honey
I want to believe
I ignore the fighting inside
I hang on to insincere
I clutch the falsehoods
Drowning in the tide
Sinking
Hunting for the breath of truth
Hoping for hope
B1tch